I am sorry it has been so long...My life has been crazy and for some reason writing is the first to go, sadly it should prob. be the first to stay (I am working on that)
SO MUCH TO SAY!! ARE YOU READY
Coffee Shops
LAst Saturday i sat with good friends and listen to a guy playing the guitar and watched as my artsy friends pulled out crayons and cameras and did what they do best...So I pulled out my journal and reflected on the moment at hand...here it is
Sitting face down at a table with Africa and coffee beans looking back up at me...Life...friends, coffee shop but no coffee and live muscic.
Good and peace - Life and love
Meaning - life has so many meanings but i do believe this type of experience is one of them, heart being shown through string on a guitar and words from the heart, friends some i have seen all day, one not since coffee yesterday and last one who gave up a few remaining hours of snowboarding to listen and hang to a familiar voice - meaning
it is not edited just raw writing...kinda of random but where i was right then
LOVE
This word has been my life these past few weeks. I was reading in my bible study and beth (moore that is but at times i fell like we are true friends so we are on a first name bases) was asking us to read Phil 4:13...now i know that all scripture is important but man talk about a verse that is mis quoted and over used. So with hesitation i read the verse that i know by heart but just to make sure i read and then thought. That is what beth asked us to do this day...read and reflect. So as i sat having just read about love and how through pain love is still there, we dont love on our own and that love is from the LOrd, i pondered on these words
"I can do everything through him who gives me strength"
And this is what i came up with -- all these years i have given that verse to sports, to hard times, to trails i thought i could never get through but never to the fact that the God who created this world who made me and created me just the way he wanted gives me strength in all situations. As i thought through that i thought...man that means all the people i think i can not love or the ones who have hurt me and i run from (bc if you know i have a tenancy to run instead of working through) I can LOVE and not because i am so great and have so much love to offer but rather because GOd is so great and allowing him to love me allows me to love others and through his love I can LOVE everyone that enters my path I call life. WHy because I can do everything through him who gives me strength,so as long as I rely on God for strength and not myself i can love people!
freedom was found in this thgouht process.
I know it has been some crazy weeks...some fun facts
1. i went to a WSU basketball game and will be going to another one on saturday!! (THANK YOU RONNIE FOR FREE TICKETS)
2. Rachel is coming in town in two weeks
3. I handed out pb-n-j and now fell like a pro at passing things out to people who may or may not want them
4. I filled out an application to work with lifeway this summer...i really hope that works out..it is for womans ministry (which is where my heart is), i am waiting for a reply, i know God is up to something good so please keep that in mind when you pray for me
5. Resonate is going well, i am meeting knew people and the two small groups i help with are doing well. GOd is moving up here and i am glad to be apart of it.
6. Me and kristin (one of the interns) have started to hang out on campus on tuesdays and meeting random people and hoping to make connections with people as well as hanging out with friends that i see on sunday night! It is going well so far, please pray that our hours are fruitful.
Friday, February 13, 2009
Monday, February 2, 2009
Life in the fast Lane
who knew time could go by so fast. I think back and the week is just a blur in time. As I sit in a coffee shop my pray is that I completed the task at hand for last week, that my time here is being used to the fullest and you know I can actually say YES! I am doing what God is calling me to.
Last night Matthew talked on discovering GOd and self and how it is this on going process of learning who God is which opens doors to who you are and then back to God and this never ending cycle.
What joy is found in this cycle. what a wonderful journey to be apart of.
COFFEE
Tall White mocha with Whip (extra hot...depending on when i am going to drink it)
Chi...Black...I Like caffeine
WHO knew that those small words could hold so much weight in the world. Well, to today i will say them about three times, or at least have the opportunity to say them (self control means not getting coffee at every coffee date).
I am in awe of God right now. I had breakfast with two amazing girls and watching God use them in their sorority. I then went to coffee with April and God just speaks to me when we meet. April is the wife of the moscow site pastor and she is also my personal mentor! God is teaching me so much in our time together. Right now we are working on allowing me to be loved and loving others. GOd is up to something good! Then went instead of a coffe house went to an apartment and wrote down goals, i am about to go meet with a girl just to talk about life!
All this before 400! MAN OH MAN, keep praying, GOd is using the people he has placed here and i know he is working in the lives of those around me. Pray that i be used to bring him glory.
JUst thought i would give yall a little insight into my life right now! hope your week is going well. let me know!!
Last night Matthew talked on discovering GOd and self and how it is this on going process of learning who God is which opens doors to who you are and then back to God and this never ending cycle.
What joy is found in this cycle. what a wonderful journey to be apart of.
COFFEE
Tall White mocha with Whip (extra hot...depending on when i am going to drink it)
Chi...Black...I Like caffeine
WHO knew that those small words could hold so much weight in the world. Well, to today i will say them about three times, or at least have the opportunity to say them (self control means not getting coffee at every coffee date).
I am in awe of God right now. I had breakfast with two amazing girls and watching God use them in their sorority. I then went to coffee with April and God just speaks to me when we meet. April is the wife of the moscow site pastor and she is also my personal mentor! God is teaching me so much in our time together. Right now we are working on allowing me to be loved and loving others. GOd is up to something good! Then went instead of a coffe house went to an apartment and wrote down goals, i am about to go meet with a girl just to talk about life!
All this before 400! MAN OH MAN, keep praying, GOd is using the people he has placed here and i know he is working in the lives of those around me. Pray that i be used to bring him glory.
JUst thought i would give yall a little insight into my life right now! hope your week is going well. let me know!!
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Skiing, speeding, and talking fast
SKIING
Oh yeah you read right, I went skiing. I wish I had pics to prove it but you are just going to have to trust me! I went to sliver mountain and hung out with some great friends. I spent the morning in a lesson. My friends are really good, so they took off and I headed to the bunny slope! OH YEAH!! IT was a blast. Who knew I would love it so much. I fell less the 20 times and that was my goal! I went down a green went down is relative but it was AWESOME. I even spent some time on my bottom sliding down the mountain because it was so steep. HAHA But i have great friends and they stuck it out with me. LOVE IT!
SPEEDING
Oh yes I received a ticket but dont worry I will not have to pay it i believe. I will have a court date here soon. Ill let you know when. I think it should be ok.
TALKING FAST
WEll, we all know i am good at this. Talking comes easy. however, talking to new pople i just did not know how this was going to work. I walked into the commons with two friends today and the goal was to meet a new person and have a conversation. Seems simple enough no big deal. Well, it was not that hard at all. We sat down by a girl who was by herself and we just started talking! Love it. WE found out all kinds of stuff about her and then she became interested in our lives and that always opens doors. It was so good. I am loving what GOd is doing. HE is turning the bad into good. He is moving me to new levels of love for him. Allowing him to love me allows me to love others. it came so easy today.
LOVE! who knew, it will change lives this year!
Oh yeah you read right, I went skiing. I wish I had pics to prove it but you are just going to have to trust me! I went to sliver mountain and hung out with some great friends. I spent the morning in a lesson. My friends are really good, so they took off and I headed to the bunny slope! OH YEAH!! IT was a blast. Who knew I would love it so much. I fell less the 20 times and that was my goal! I went down a green went down is relative but it was AWESOME. I even spent some time on my bottom sliding down the mountain because it was so steep. HAHA But i have great friends and they stuck it out with me. LOVE IT!
SPEEDING
Oh yes I received a ticket but dont worry I will not have to pay it i believe. I will have a court date here soon. Ill let you know when. I think it should be ok.
TALKING FAST
WEll, we all know i am good at this. Talking comes easy. however, talking to new pople i just did not know how this was going to work. I walked into the commons with two friends today and the goal was to meet a new person and have a conversation. Seems simple enough no big deal. Well, it was not that hard at all. We sat down by a girl who was by herself and we just started talking! Love it. WE found out all kinds of stuff about her and then she became interested in our lives and that always opens doors. It was so good. I am loving what GOd is doing. HE is turning the bad into good. He is moving me to new levels of love for him. Allowing him to love me allows me to love others. it came so easy today.
LOVE! who knew, it will change lives this year!
Saturday, January 24, 2009
PRAY
I need some prayer, this new year has been more of a transition then the first go around in august, and many days i fell attacked. The hard thing is, is i am learning so much about God and who he is that there is this counter balance in life. I know i am where God wants me, yet i am hurting. Please, know this is hard to write, yet i know there are those of you who read this and i wanted you to please pray for me and resonate and my friends in the coming days and weeks. I love yall all so much and i know God is up to something good. I can not wait to tell you all about it.
Saturday, January 17, 2009
New YEAR...New LOOK
WEll, there have been some changes to the blog a new tag line at the top, a new background, some new photos for you to view...i'll try and keep those up to date...and a new about me section!!
New Year
I have been sick all of 09...who can say that, i can. I even caught this really gross bug thing that has been going around moscow. NOT GOOD However, it did allow me sometime alone, but not to process or to deep think but rather to lay in bed and wait for the hour to come, did i mention it was gross. Thankfully i made it through and now i am feeling much better. Toast is my friend and so is sprite. I cleaned my apartment and now i am doing laundry. I need hangers, i have to many clothes. It is a problem.
Thinking on the 2008
I was home for about two and half weeks and one would think i would have processed the last 5 months during that time, but if you know me you know this is not how i work. I wait till the need and then think through. Well the last few days at home i went to debriefing and was kinda of forced into thinking through the last few months and once i started thinking i could not stop. SO here are some of my thoughts from the year that was 08
1. Community is deeper and purer then anything i could have ever thought of before. God opened my eyes to what meaningful time with friends and deep community is these past few months. MAN what a joy it is to have a little glimpse of what community is or was meant to be. The down side is now i have standards for myself. Well i thought this was a down side and then these past few days i was able to come to terms with the idea that this is a good thing. Making time for others, placing people before self, and learning that the world around me is my community and now it is time to take care and to really care for the world around me, the place i am living in, the place i call mine, it is time to care for them with an open heart.
COMMUNITY has a whole new meaning in 2009
2. Collage degree with no use at the moment. I always new i wanted to teach. I can think back to the times i went to my aunts school and sat and watched her teach, i can remember teaching in my room as a child...i always taught the year below i was in...in high school i gave up two electives to teach in a fifth grade classroom...why, because i knew it was for me. Collage was an easy choice SFA has one of the best education programs in state. I am a prepared teacher of 4-8 grade science and yet i sit here without using this sheet of paper. Sadly, it is one of the hardest parts of life right now. I guess hard is relative. God allowed me to get this degree, to meet people, to touch students lives and then through going to SFA allowed me to find out about pullman and now here i am. SO i know my time was not wasted by sometimes i wonder if i will ever teach or if the degree was get me to this place in life.
Life will be what GOd desires and not what i think in 2009
3. I love to write and have been given this passion. The past few months i have not allowed this side of me to show. That is something i decided to change in 09. I want to share the words i have been given and not hide them away. My dad said some very meaningful words to me while i was home and they sparked this in me. So i will write more in the coming months and days. Yall can kinda of hold me accountable to this. Writing allows me process and to think and to give light to the insights i have. Holding these inside does me no good. It hinders learning what GOd has for me.
Writing will mean more in 2009
SO, these are some of my thoughts as 09 starts to take shape. I pray this flame in me will stay strong in the coming months that will make up this year.
New Year
I have been sick all of 09...who can say that, i can. I even caught this really gross bug thing that has been going around moscow. NOT GOOD However, it did allow me sometime alone, but not to process or to deep think but rather to lay in bed and wait for the hour to come, did i mention it was gross. Thankfully i made it through and now i am feeling much better. Toast is my friend and so is sprite. I cleaned my apartment and now i am doing laundry. I need hangers, i have to many clothes. It is a problem.
Thinking on the 2008
I was home for about two and half weeks and one would think i would have processed the last 5 months during that time, but if you know me you know this is not how i work. I wait till the need and then think through. Well the last few days at home i went to debriefing and was kinda of forced into thinking through the last few months and once i started thinking i could not stop. SO here are some of my thoughts from the year that was 08
1. Community is deeper and purer then anything i could have ever thought of before. God opened my eyes to what meaningful time with friends and deep community is these past few months. MAN what a joy it is to have a little glimpse of what community is or was meant to be. The down side is now i have standards for myself. Well i thought this was a down side and then these past few days i was able to come to terms with the idea that this is a good thing. Making time for others, placing people before self, and learning that the world around me is my community and now it is time to take care and to really care for the world around me, the place i am living in, the place i call mine, it is time to care for them with an open heart.
COMMUNITY has a whole new meaning in 2009
2. Collage degree with no use at the moment. I always new i wanted to teach. I can think back to the times i went to my aunts school and sat and watched her teach, i can remember teaching in my room as a child...i always taught the year below i was in...in high school i gave up two electives to teach in a fifth grade classroom...why, because i knew it was for me. Collage was an easy choice SFA has one of the best education programs in state. I am a prepared teacher of 4-8 grade science and yet i sit here without using this sheet of paper. Sadly, it is one of the hardest parts of life right now. I guess hard is relative. God allowed me to get this degree, to meet people, to touch students lives and then through going to SFA allowed me to find out about pullman and now here i am. SO i know my time was not wasted by sometimes i wonder if i will ever teach or if the degree was get me to this place in life.
Life will be what GOd desires and not what i think in 2009
3. I love to write and have been given this passion. The past few months i have not allowed this side of me to show. That is something i decided to change in 09. I want to share the words i have been given and not hide them away. My dad said some very meaningful words to me while i was home and they sparked this in me. So i will write more in the coming months and days. Yall can kinda of hold me accountable to this. Writing allows me process and to think and to give light to the insights i have. Holding these inside does me no good. It hinders learning what GOd has for me.
Writing will mean more in 2009
SO, these are some of my thoughts as 09 starts to take shape. I pray this flame in me will stay strong in the coming months that will make up this year.
Friday, January 9, 2009
Back in Pullman
WEll, the weather was nice and coming back to pullman was not as hard as getting to dallas. I am still kinda of not feeling up to par, but i am having a good time. Alot of my friends are back as well, and so we all hung out last night. It was good to be back and to kinda have a norm again.
We have a staff meeting today and hopefully it should give some clarity to this coming semester!! I am really looking forward to it all. I have a renewed spirit and I know GOd is up to something Good.!!
We have a staff meeting today and hopefully it should give some clarity to this coming semester!! I am really looking forward to it all. I have a renewed spirit and I know GOd is up to something Good.!!
Sunday, January 4, 2009
What a way to start the new year!
So i am sick!! I have been sick for like four days now...if you think about it, i have been sick all of 2009! LAME!!
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