Sunday, May 23, 2010

late

So I put this off for a while, I thought it would just go away, that the day would never have to come. That i would just leave and that life would go on. Yet here i am sitting in my parents office, Jessica upstairs, mom and dad just feet away, and all I can think is that it is no where near over and the roller coaster has just started.

Two years ago I graduated from collage, packed up all my stuff and drove. 33 hours later I was moving into a one bedroom basement apartment.

In that room I wrote, I cried, I grew, I laughed, I shared, I learned.

A year later I knew more about community, the Lord, and myself.
A year later I decided to stay. I stayed for people, for a calling, for a purpose.
A year later I moved into a new apartment.

In this three bedroom place I made new best friends, laughed more, cried more, shared more, preached more and learned more.

A year later I had community.
A year later I had a deeper understanding of a calling.
A year later I was moving yet again.

*Now it is even later, Jessica is back in Pullman, my parents are at work and my sister is in the other room waiting to go to the movies with me. I yet again pushed this off because I don't do hard well and I don't do change easy.*

So most of you know by now I moved back to Dallas to follow a passion I have a had since college. I accepted a teaching job as a mission field but also as a way to accomplish this dream.

I am sorry if I left to fast to say bye
I am sorry if I never got to sit across a table from you, with our favorite coffee in hand, and tell you in person that I was leaving.

Believe me when I say I wanted to, but I don't do change well and because of that I don't do change slow.

The last few weeks here in Texas have been hard.

I miss everything I was told I would

Friends
Church
Random dinners
Watching GLEE
Coffee on every corner

I miss things more then I thought I would

Meetings
A roommate without a car
A roommate with a lot of make up
A small room where the window was broken
Church where I knew people

Yall taught me more then I recognize right now, yall showed me God in ways I did not notice at the time.

Computers, coffee, Tennis, 15 min car rides to that other state, talking through silence, and loving

deeply passionately authentically loving

Cheesy as it may be, I will never forget the mark you all left on my life. The people I talk with here, the students I will teach, the friends I will make
They will all know yall, they will know writer are artists, they will know engineers are not just nerds, that playing the guitar until your fingers bleed is passion, that even settlers is a game worth playing at least once, that magic is real and that you can not be defined until you know who you are.

You taught me to search for greatness and in the meantime live a life worth looking at
and for this is am grateful

So, thank you

thank you, for allowing God to use you in my life.
thank you for being my friends, my mentors, my community,

thank you